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"It hurts to feel life. To pause.
To stop and listen to your own breathing.
But you have to lay yourself open to it all. Because that's where God is.
There is no life apart from God, because God is not apart from life. 
If you turn away, if you run, you will miss both."
(Heather Harpham, I Went to the Animal Fair.)   

I’m earnestly seeking a Heart-Honest Faith—

I’m rooting out the looking-down-on-others Pseudo-Faith--

I grew up living the ugly-empty lie that if I just stayed AWAY from all the “worldly” TV-watching, non-homeschooling, too-trendy looking, not-memorizing or reading enough Bible types of people, that I’d develop true faith, genuine Christianity.

But I just lived the Pharisaical life, caring more about living the Christian Image than loving the Christ.

Then God stripped away the Image I’d been living, stripped muscle from bone to reveal the inner chambers of my heart, to show me the ugly-empty truth: I was good at playing the Christian and terrible at living Christ.

I finally understood: “Man looks at the outward appearance but God looks at the heart.”

And I claimed this promise: “I will remove your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.” (Ezekial 26: 36)

And its been bloody, painful surgery—stripping away the warped Christian Image I lived so long.

I spent most of my life worshiping a God-who-is-not-God. A God who cares more about doing the right thing than being the right person. A God absent of grace, cold as iron, distant as the stars.

I long to worship God in the flesh--Jesus--closer than skin, full of love, giver of JOY!  

It’s this Jesus I’m running after--no matter the cost.

So, run with me, and as we run (or jog or walk and on some days limp or crawl) we can laugh and cry our way to truly leaning on Jesus in the everyday joys and trials of this Life.